+ injustice +

If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor. If an elephant has its foot on the tail of a mouse and you say that you are neutral, the mouse will not appreciate your neutrality.

Bishop Desmond Tutu

+ crush, fantasy, and survivorman +

and dearest, can you

tell, I am trying

to love you less.

from ada limon's crush.

- - -

i miss my fantasy land, so, i'm going back.

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Here’s a fact: Some people want to live more

Than others do.

from sherman alexie's survivorman.

+ july planning. +

a partial list...

books.

+ high fidelity. nick hornby.
+ a year of mornings; 3191 miles apart. maria vettese.
+ the art of loving. erich fromm.
+ the sane society. erich fromm.
+ escape from freedom. eric fromm.
+ communist manifesto. marx.
+ about a boy. nick hornby.
+ crazy love. francis chan.
+ the memory keepers daughter. kim edwards.
+ a beautiful mess. rick mckinley.
+ the glass castle. jeanette walls.
+ love letters of great men. compilation.

movies.

+ coraline.
+ nightmare before christmas.
+ stainboy.
+ moongirl.
+ bridge to terabithia.
+ corpse bride.

habits.

+ sleeping.
+ spending time alone more often than not.
+ waking up at 6.30am.
+ differentiating between real & imagined social obligations.
+ calling myself out on imaginary restraints.
+ writing regularly, without a purpose.
+ giving of myself rather than my resources.
+ reading daily.
+ remembering that god > love.
+ not boring myself, except when absolutely necessary.
+ listening to music that i love & not just what i like.

+ what i want this week +

quiet.
silence.
peace.
air.
thought.
stillness.

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one of my favorite quotes on love. i used to post this everywhere, and haven't thought of it in a very long time:

"Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable." [c.s. lewis]

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You don't have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body.”

+ inside of my brain today. +

work. friendships. fashion. dresses. iced caramel macchiato. age of enlightenment. episcopalians. church history. anglican churches. two dimensional beings vs one dimensional beings. purpose of man. core attributes of god. inherancy of meaning to physical creation. deism. founding fathers. the evolution of the judeo-christian's religion and how to determine the true center. method of choosing belief systems within christianity and the method's validity. book of genesis. definition of art. cs lewis. spiritual vs physical. how real is reality. influence of language on the development on a human's mind. til we have faces. erich fromm. socialism. purpose of education. biased motives for education. the concept of balance. raw science vs meaning+science. the basis of reason and what is it derived from. the weight of denominations and church movements and how we determine their weight. how inherant is the drive to create in man and why. family. going back to school. calling mom to apologize. the art of loving. is spiritual is to physical as thought is to action? or is physical action a metaphor for spiritual action and art the physical metaphor for spiritual thought? influence of knowledge on love and of love on knowledge. available time. prioritizing. goals. list of books to read. art show tonight. direction of my art. roommates and where to live this fall. music. comfest. weekend plans. scheduling senior photo shoots. theft claim. my relationship with god. all focuses every year for all years or one focus every year indefinitely. love. my motive for love. the extent of pursuing love; how much weight does it and should it truly have. writing. re-writing lost books? photography style. my brother. how to begin to attempt to organize my life. purchasing a massive bulletin board; where to find it. polaroid film. man's tendency to elevate one concept above another; our nature to rank and determine value. good vs great and my awareness of both and tendency to settle. the color white. the unnoticed fluidity and frequency of the process of intangible to physical.

+ love, nature, + i hate the all american rejects. +

keep your love of nature, for that is the true way to understand art more and more.[vangogh]

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I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

Now where's your picket fence, love?
And where's that shiny car?
And did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
I've never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

And truth be told, I miss you
And truth be told, I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell
I hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself,
"Where did it all go wrong?"
But the list goes on and on (and on and on and on)
And truth be told, I miss you
And truth be told, I'm lying

[allamericanrejects/givesyouhell]

+ wants. +

i have a feeling that if i was half this organized, i would get twice as much accomplished:



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i want everything this woman makes.




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i also wish i had the time to create installations like eric otto.



man. eric and his blues.

i also love this:



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things like this make me realize how badly i need to start sketching again.

+ the third year. finally. +

one world at a time. [thoreau]

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"this will be the sign for you, daughter:

this year you will eat what grows by itself,

the second year what springs from that.

but in the third year, sow and reap,

you will plant vineyards and you will eat their fruit."

isaiah 37.30

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he is so true to his promises.

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+ [blank] +

+ knots. +

i want to be just like him when i grow up.


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also, i'm pretty sure i will marry the next boy that brings me polaroid film, anything to do with antique gold insects, takes me to an old hidden bookstore for the day to read out loud with me, or to an aquarium to sit and talk to the fishies.

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i want to see you drunk,
just so i'll finally know what you really think of me.