+ today is unfortunate because +

i don't have the time to be obsessed with what i am fascinated by. and it's your fault.


i absolutely despise white middle class america, and i've realized that's what i'm surrounded by.


i'm losing irreplaceable parts of my life because you are so despicably selfish.


today i would trade my heart for being as shallow and spoiled as her, because i need a break.


i never genuinely complain, because everytime i have, it's made things a thousand times worse. ps. screw boys.


i am so god-awful at settling, and i need to get better at it, because i have to right now.


i want things that don't exist.


i'm pretty sure i made the wrong decision that one time.


i think i ended up a big fish in a little pond, and i fucking hate little ponds.


i don't care if you say i'm sorry; you can't fix what you don't understand.


i'm about 97.4% sure i will never be home.


dad, if you find this, don't even bother with the psychoanalysis. and stop assuming you know everything. because you don't.


i have every right to be bitter some days, and i have got to stop caring that you think i don't.


i was born in the wrong century in the wrong country.


no one has ever really known me, and only one person ever really tried.


within 12 hours i will want to delete this, but i won't, because i need a reminder than i'm human, and just as messed up as the next.


i can't for the life of me figure out why i live where i do.


i need 48 hours to act entirely out of character before i lose my mind.


your life is so easy that i just can't take you seriously.


i'm not stupid enough to do what i want.

+ "whoa, these are different for you." +

we try to live forgiven
but they won't let us forget.

What is life?
That we think we choose what is ours?
We believe things should go our way.
We are so selfish.
I am so selfish, and yet
I do not know what it is I want.
Where is my love?
Is it lost in the ocean?
Is it alive in a foreign country?
Does a young child,
Cold and bleeding,
Carry what my heart desires?
Am I meant to save the world?
Am I meant to change?
Where is my meaning?
I am the creator,
I have lost my creation.
I will be a valiant knight,
One that will not settle for less.
I wish to fight
Whether I fight for peace,
Or for war.
Where is my army?
Where are my men?
Where is my lady?
What do I love?
Please tell me.
I have no way if I have no love.
I have only shame.
I want more.

- my brother.

+ best things.+

best things i've seen today, as of 10.08am, are as follows:







( shirt found here. )

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best essay i've read recently. the radical idea that children are people by flourish klink.

and to all of you who think twitter is worthless, think again.

www.cultureby.com is pretty great.

- - -

someone needs to tell you that what you're doing isn't working.

- - -
i miss shooting with my 50mm 1.8 and natural lighting.
so that's what i'm gonna do for awhile.

- - -

www.henryjenkins.org

i've spent the greater portion of my morning reading essays from grad students at MIT, posted by henry jenkins (director of the MIT comparative media studies program) on his blog. fascinating.

- - -
you're the hottest thing since sunburns.

+ new decision. +

i don't hate the rain anymore.







and i really want this today.

really, really, really.

+ its friday! +

when you love someone, you hug them.

leelah. age 5. [5/100]

- - -

if you want to be happy, be.
- leo tolstoy.

- - -

to do list, again.
+ catch up on love + 100 strangers editing.
+ take 5 more.
+ clean up my darn room.
+ nap.
+ move photos to external harddrive.
+ button trees.
+ frame that art, dang!

- - -

time isn't working
like they all said it would
what now

-me.

- - -

love those who are not known, for you yourselves have been unknown. deut. 10.19

+ 2/100 and $3 challenge. +

sherrie lynn. 43.
"love is unconditionally giving, just as god has given me."
[ love + 100 strangers project, 2/100 ]

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the $3 challenge.
so today i was out thrifting with my friend robby, and i decided to do the $3 challenge again. ($3 challenge: to make something hideous look attractive.)

i found this shirt, a tagless size XL from god-knows-where shirt that never in a million years would i have normally purchased. score? yes or no.

+ wednesday. +

why does time grant the illusion
of innocence?

yesterday, sins.
last year, only missteps.

are we simply forgetful creatures?
or is this a gift.
so that we have some hope of
holding hands
again and again and again.

-lauren nicole

- - -

i bought another book!

+ to do lists. +

this is what the inside of my brain looks like.




to do list when i get home.

+ finish painting black frames
+ publish 3 button trees on etsy
+ clean up desktop
+ catch up on photos
+ strangers project - 3 people.
+ go buy post it notes
+ change twitter design
+ frame all the art in my living room

+ happy june first, part 2. +

i just ordered this book today.


andnowiwant

5: where will you be in five years?


a year of mornings: 3191 miles apart

---

you come from parents' wanton
a childhood rough and rotten
i come from wealth and beauty
untouched by work or duty

and oh, my love, my love.
and oh, my love, my love.
we both go down together.

i found you, a tattooed tramp
a dirty daughter from the labor camps
i laid you down in the grass of the clearing
you wept, but your soul was willing

and oh, my love. my love.
and oh, my love. my love.
we both go down together.

+ happy june first +

the ocean is incredible, and ice even more so:


inspiration for my next series,
because god is more creative than me





so damn cute. oooooo boy.