+ long time ago +

oh, and the effect of that sun...years ago, when i actually had a tan.

+ i miss this view of my god +

and i miss breathing. really breathing.

+ starvation +

delight yourself in the lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.



in other words.



when you are consumed with the joy of the lord, he will satisfy everything you are starving for and make use of every passion.



what am i starving for?

- color
- adrenaline rushes
- emotional highs
- absolute peace
- creativity
- completion
- intensity
- outrageous grace
- perfect love
- security
- deafening noise
- awe

+ creativity = value? +

why do i insist upon determining the value of myself by what i create?